“YUCKY…. YES LORD YOU WANT ME TO DO WHAT???”
This devotion has been 3 weeks in the writing….I tell you… it is not one that I wanted to LIVE through in order to GET it on paper…all I can say is BUT GOD!
LIFE!
Sometimes life can be so excruciatingly painful to live, dealing with inward battles, outward battles, economic battles, relational battles, family battles, just dealing with STUFF…
LIFE!
Some of us are smiling through so much pain and debris that we look up and realize that…wait a min…is this supposed to be my life right now? GOD ARE YOU THERE?
IF YOU are here then WHERE ARE YOU?
LIFE!
Such was life about three weeks ago when I finally started feeling SOME KIND OF WAY about mine. I am happy in many parts of my life and then on the flipside very, like, NOT HAPPY with other parts. It started to affect how I was moving through my days and REACTING to my loved ones. THE MAN CAVE was starting to look more and more like a place of refuge for me.
WOMEN: **Man Cave … is a place where men retreat when things are topsy and turvy and we need a “space” where there is NO ONE but ourselves** NO WOMEN ALLOWED unless invited! Smiles…
MEN: MAN CAVES are not excuses for you to leave your home to greener, so you think pastures, or get drunk beyond sanity, or escape from YOUR RESPONSIBILITIES to you FAMILY! It is a temporary refuge to collect your thoughts on how you should proceed.
SOOOOOOOOOO….. as I was saying, I was having a few weeks worth of these moments and they all came crashing down when I spotted two “MICE IN A BUCKET”
I, walked by a garbage can and I heard a rustling, looked inside and there were two mice STUCK in a garbage can, with NO WAY OUT…and in the way I was feeling I looked into the can and said to the mice… “TODAY YOU DIE” as I proclaimed my superiority over their measly micely existence, pronouncing their doom in the situation that they were in… “STUCK IN A BUCKET”
I walked away with my feelings of… “I WILL KILL THESE Creatures and allow them to feel the wrath of my INWARD pain”….like it was their fault I was feeling this way…
Then GOD spoke to me…against all I was feeling and against the reasons of… “MY DIANNETTE would be scared to death…her and every woman I know of these two little cute creatures….so I have to kill them to be the HERO! YAY!
THE LORD SAID… “YOU WILL NOT KILL THEM!” I immediately responded with an OUT LOUD “WHAT GOD…I mean YES GOD?”
Then the LORD GOD OF ALL CREATION began to talk to me…
The LORD GOD began to speak to me and I was like….let me make sure this is you…. He spoke again and “THIS IS ME”!
He gave me some instructions, he gave me a clear define lesson, a MUST to do and all that he was saying to me was going against what I was feeling or what I thought my MANLY intervention should have been.
Then HE SPOKE “go over to the bucket and look at My creatures” and watch them for Me!”
“WHAT GOD…I MEAN YES GOD DO WHAT?” HE responded… You heard ME!
In protest… I went! To the bucket and began looking at these mice stuck in a bucket. I was there for 10-15 mins before GOD began speaking again. Then He spoke:
“You see them, they are mine. They are stuck. They don’t know why they are stuck but they are, they have no idea how they got into that “stuck place” but they are there NONE THE LESS. YET THEY ARE STILL MINE!”
Selah!
HE MADE ME WATCH THEM. I looked for another 5 mins then GOD SPOKE AGAIN:
“I want you to act like me for a second, SEE YOURSELF AS ME… then he blew me away… YOU ARE CREATED IN MY IMAGE SO ACT LIKE ME for a second…”
“He continues: YOU ARE IN A STUCK PLACE…YOURSELF, RIGHT NOW, THEN HE STATES…. I SEE YOU!!!”
“I’M WATCHING YOU, NOT JUST WATCHING, I AM WATCHING OVER YOU IN THIS STUCK PLACE!!!
I felt like singing “BEN” the MJ song and shedding a tear….
That moment passed and I said to my Master… “now what”?
God spoke again…. “SET THEM FREE….”
I said “WHAT GOD…I MEAN YES GOD… WHAT!!!?”
“He responded…. YOU HEARD ME!
From the MANLY standpoint all I can see was all of my points for my bravely act of killing these creatures, of a sure-nuf heart-attack for 98% of the women and some men I know….I saw all of my MANLY points go out the window….HAH!
So I go into a dialogue with the KING OF kings and the LORD of lords.
“NOW JESUS…. These are indeed your creatures and they have to be put to death because…..they are in a place they should not be in and they………………”
He SPOKE: as HE began to show me some of my history with Him…
“Remember your STUCK PLACES? DID I KILL YOU OFF even when IT WAS YOUR FAULT for being in that STUCK PLACE… ALL I EVER DID WAS WATCH YOU…watched OVER YOU in that STUCK PLACE so that NO HARM would come to you!”
I was starting to feel like Moses… I had a “comeback”…. I was trying to use biblically wording “SURELY…you don’t expect me to set them free here where I found them”….
Then the KING OF KINGS and THE LORD OF LORDS spoke again:
“NO! I expect YOU to ACT AS I have done you…take them to a NEW PLACE..like I have done you…FAR AWAY from the STUCK PLACE and SET THEM FREE JUST LIKE I have done you!”
WOW…. SELAH again!
A NEW PLACE, AWAY FROM THE “STUCK PLACE” & SET THEM FREE!
WOW! All I could do was to take these creatures, HIS CREATURES, FAR from where they GOT stuck and set them free.
Then after this was done… he spoke again and simply said to me: “I here, I’m watching you even in this you’re STUCK PLACE! When I set you free, you will see and BE IN a NEW PLACE, Unstuck!”
“GOD GOT US”!
All I can end with is WOW…. I think you get the FULL PICTURE!
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